yet she walks pastthe happy shopper walking up and down the highstreet buying presents for her loved ones, the homeless person who cant buy anything for his loved ones. yet she walks past him with ease. she dines on delicous food, he eats disgusting leftovers. she has a cosy home with a bed, he has a cold pavement with dustbins. in winter while she is keeping warm, he is freezeing. when it rains she has a roof over her head, while he gets damp. when she is sad, she has friends and family, while he is left to suffer. yet she walks past him with ease.
mum stays there, as cold and white as death. her blank dead eyes stared right at me as my heart began to thud. then out of the stillness of her figure her lips moved.
''you killed me, my own daughter killed me.''
i shook my head.
''i was drunk.''
she stared and whispered.
''you keep telling yourself that. you were not drunk.''
rage and fear swirled inside me.
i couldnt belive i screeched at her, saying she was the liar, when i was. i knew i was gonna get worse than being grounded. i looked in her eyes. a deep fire raged inside them for one thing.
no wordsno words can describe the way i feel about you. i hate you, but i love you. your mean, but admireing. when you pick on me, i wish i was you. the look in your eyes never tells your secrets. i like that but i hate you. the feeling is there whenever you walk past me. you talk all the time and the feeling is there when i hear your voice, so i wish you would just shut up. whenever you hit me i hate you, but when your near i love you. i wish you would go away, but your always there.
aloneall you could hear was waves. i felt like the last person in the world. walking up and down the sea. watching the swimmers. i lie under a palm tree. closing my eyes, gently thinking of myself. suddenly a scream disturbs me. i looked up. a fin sliced through the water with ease. i cant leave those people to die. my legs started running for the hotel. you cant just leave them, you just cant. i turned round and ran to the edge of the water. without thinking i jumped into the water, i jumped to my fate.